Otakku beku. Lidahku kelu.

During my schooling years, public speaking and debating were my forte. Heaps of competitions from different levels- be it school level, district level, state level, or even international level- I participated them all.

I was fearless and confident.

Now, at the age of 24 with a successful career as a lecturer, my level of confidence in speaking and socialising has elevated. Well, at least I believe it has.

However, all this confident-fearless-charming-Natasha went straight down the gutter when Fauzi introduced me to his parents today.

I was anything but, confident and fearless.

For someone whose job is to speak and look charming all the time, I did a pretty good job at not saying anything at all during the first ten minutes.

For someone who had confidently presented her project paper in a conference in Australia during her final year of degree with hundreds attendees, and presented her paperwork to the board of Ministry in Education, I was beyond nervous and doubtful.

For someone who had spoken and given lectures before hundreds of students, I, for once, was lost for words. 

I might have lost my heart, and brain too. Breathing was hard to find, and thinking? I was partially convinced that my brain was too surprised it went into comatose. It left me blank, gapping like a half-dead fish, thinking of what to say.

And the fact that my boobs were popping out of my blouse, really did not help with the situation.

If I may exaggerate, I was THIS close to having myocardial infarction!

Had he told me he was going to introduce me to his parents today, I would have dressed prettily and decently. And a heads up would be extremely appreciated!

Well, truthfully, he did tell me he was going to introduce us, but Fauzi is Fauzi. A humourous person. A joker. Hardly ever serious. So, I took his words lightly, assuming he was kidding. Again. For the umpteenth time.

Boy, was I wrong. Obviously, he was NOT joking.

0_o

Nevertheless, thank you Sayang for today. I can now cross my checklist:

Jumpa mama and abah

Another step to happily ever after, I hope. I love you.