Boarding School.

When I was in elementary, I once told my mommy that I wanted to go to boarding school. To experience something new. To be able to expand my horizon, and feel the freedom of being a way from my family, you know.

But, my mommy and the rest of my family members dismissed my idea, my dream, without any hesitation and I believe without any hint of guilt at all, haha.

After PMR, I secretly applied for MRSM, haha, but my mommy found out about it few days later and I received the never ending lecture from her, my daddy & the rest. God, it was a nightmare, haha. She was devastated that I went behind her back, hehee. Lesson learned. =P

And after SPM, I talked to her that I wanted to study abroad and I did apply for A level+twinning program at Raffles and I was accepted. But, since she didn't like the idea of me, being a way from her, so I had to turn the offer down.

Having to let your dream go, was heartbreaking.

I got the shock of my life, when my baby brother announced that he wants to go to boarding school. And NO ONE said anything about it. Talk about sexist. -.-'

The moment Abang announced that he wants to go to boarding school, I started to feel anxious. I was literally on the verge of crying. *blush* 

He said, he has always had his eyes on two ivy schools. When he first mentioned STAR (Tunku Abdul Rahman School, Ipoh), I was like, 

"ya okay, that's a really good choice Abang, people like you should be in STAR. Besides it's like 15 minutes from home, we will come and visit you every day, and we'll bring lunch, in case the cafeteria food are not yummy."

He glared at me (oh, lupa dia dah besar, highly unlikely he'll want us to visit him, but, we just don't care, haha) and proceeded, "Malay College (MCKK) doesn't sound so bad, kan kakak? Royalties and ministers studied there. It should be a good school to enroll, right? I can't make up my mind, I have to make a decision by next week."

And as dramatic as I always am, (haha, SOME times ;P) I broke down in front of him, in front of my grandparents, in front of my uncles and aunts. Basically, in front of my whole family. And sobbing, "That's like in Kuala Kangsar, that's too far Aieman..."

Frankly, I'm the big sister who likes to tease and bully my younger siblings, and make them cry or at least whine, not the other way around. I don't normally show my emotions, for example, being weak and crying in front of them, haha, so I kinda blew my tough-sister image. Haha, talk about ego much. 

But, the thought of him leaving, just makes me feel really sad. I just graduated from university and this is the time for me to bond with my siblings, after being away for 4 years. But, they're growing up so fast. Five years from now, he's gonna graduate from high school, then pursue his dream and then get married, and I will not be able to see him as frequent as I wish to. :'(

My baby brother is embarking upon adolescence, and I am sadly approaching my senescence. Darn.